Showing posts with label Worship. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Worship. Show all posts

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Worship

Psalm 89:15-16: Happy are those who hear the joyful call to worship, for they will walk in the light of Your presence, Lord. They rejoice all day long in Your wonderful reputation.They exult in Your righteousness.


Don't Gimli and Virginia look so peaceful and content in this picture? They are resting with each other, enjoying the warmth of the sun. You might even go so far as to say they are "basking" in it. They are resting in the radiance of the sun.  They chose to be in the place in our home where the sun shines the brightest so they could get the most sunlight possible. They don't expect the sun to find them wherever they are- they moved themselves to where it was already shining. 


This picture reminds me of what worshiping God should look like: Resting in God's presence.  It sounds so easy when you boil it down to such a simple phrase, yet many believers don't actively worship on a regular basis. This is something I have struggled with for years. I have looked at other people at church who seem to really be worshiping passionately and thought, "Worship just doesn't come naturally to me like that", or "I'm just not as emotive as they are". Or I've found myself in churches that didn't have music that I preferred, so used that as an excuse to disengage.  The truth is, I have been fearful and lazy. Worship isn't something that just happens automatically. Just like Gimli and Virginia had to move themselves to the place where the sun was shining to receive the warmth, we also must move ourselves, readjust our heart and mindset to be focused on Jesus. We can't just stand there and wait for ourselves to spontaneously erupt in worship. To worship, we must intentionally choose to do so by engaging our hearts and minds. 


There are lots of reasons I have chosen not to engage my heart and mind in worship. I've disengaged at times when I've been in an emotionally fragile place and didn't want to embarrass myself by crying at church. I've avoided worshiping purely because I didn't want to put the work into engaging my heart and mind. I chose to just glaze over, sing the songs, and think about what I'd eat for lunch that day. I've believed a lie that I have to be all put together before I can really worship God, so felt unworthy to be in His presence, and avoided Him. I've had really big stuff going on in my life that has monopolized my thoughts. Instead of casting those things before the Lord, I've spent time I could have been worshiping Him just needlessly worrying and fretting over them. Most of the time, though, I've just been so concerned about how I'd appear to the people around me, not wanting to be thought too spiritual, not spiritual enough, a faker, a weirdo, or any other undesirable description I can come up with. 


Whatever the reason, the one who has lost out in these situations is myself. When we enter the presence of God, we cannot help but be blessed by Him. If we tell Him, "I love you", He will always respond with, "I love you too". How much of a difference would just feeling that love, peace, and comfort made in all of those situations? My prayer is that every opportunity I get, whether in the car on the way to work, at church, in my personal time of prayer and Bible reading, that I will truly rest in God's presence and worship Him with my whole heart. 

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Pressing Upward

Last week, Paul had a one week class that kept him away from home all day for 5 days. The dogs are used to having Paul home with them most of the time, being out of the crate, & getting to play with Paul and each other. This week, that wasn't possible. They had to be in their crates for almost all day. When we finally did get home, they were dying for attention and to run out some energy. After a day or two of this, we noticed they were becoming more and more defiant and disobedient. We couldn't even get them to sit, which they usually do very quickly. Virginia was barking at everything in sight. They were completely acting on instinct instead of following us. As you can imagine, we were incredibly frustrated. When Paul's class ended and he was home more again, they settled back down very quickly. We concluded that their bad behavior was a result of not getting a fundamental need in their lives: quality time with and attention from their master.

I'm the same way when I don't get quality time with my Master, Jesus. It seems like my whole life is out of whack. When I haven't connected with Him, I am more prone to believe lies from my flesh or the enemy. Every insecurity feels like a glaring weakness on display for the world to see, and suddenly all I can think about is fixing myself, or at least how to fix how I appear.  I'm not worshiping God anymore- I'm worshiping the approval of others.  This makes me less patient, less kind, more defensive, more controlling and altogether focused on myself.

What I need every day is to hear my Master tell me, "I love you as you are, weaknesses and all. I have a plan for your life. I am at work in your life. You are valuable because you are Mine." If I don't take time to meet with Him and worship Him, instead of His voice, I hear my sinful flesh, the enemy and the world's voices. Life naturally leads us away from Christ. It's like walking up the down escalator. If we don't intentionally walk towards Christ, we will drift away from Him. It's considerably easier to go with the downward flow of the escalator, but the consequences are great.  I'm praying God will continue to remind me of the great reward of pressing on upward towards Him, and for the strength to keep climbing!

"It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out of your door... You step into the road, and if you don't keep your feet, there is no knowing where you might be swept off to." -Bilbo Baggins in Lord of the Rings, by J.R.R. Tolkin